Insomnia
It’s what keeps me up at night lately, even with my new schedule I don’t sleep until well after 4 AM. I really do hate this and wish I could just come home, sleep, and get up earlier and get things done.
Just recently, like tonight I found out that one of the guys that I have ignored, blown off, and just in simple terms rejected on multiple occasions is with someone now. It shouldn’t bother me, but for some reason I actually feel a little hurt and almost a slight sting of rejection. I never really wanted to be the girl in his arms that badly before, but seeing someone else there makes me a little jealous. I guess I’m just a little crazy. I don’t know what is up with me. Did I really like him all along and was just afraid of getting involved again or do I just want the things that I can’t have? I should be feeling happy that he is off my tail right? I’m such an insane person… How the heck do I even function..
I really wanted to cut back on my spending like I said I would, but I bought a new wireless combo set. It wasn’t even like a great deal, but I saw it in the store and had to have it. I’m using it now and I got to say it’s nice to not have my heavy laptop on me while typing, just a much lighter wireless keyboard. The laser mouse is neat too, it’s the same design as my optical one that I like very much, but just with more precision with the laser. Kinda awesome, the geeky me… I was actually looking for a nice black keyboard to replace the white one for my desktop, but walked out spending 5x what I expected to on a silver set of hardware. Opps… However, really from this point on, no more frivolous spending.
My parents are getting on my case even when I’m at my house. Just drives me so freaking nuts. Since I don’t have all my furniture yet, my bed is literally in the middle of my room. My mom was on my ass telling me to rearrange my room so my bed isn’t in the middle. Not that I have much stuff, but the move would require me moving the bed, a whole sleuth of cables and my bulky TV. I’m sorry, not happening till I have everything and know where it all goes. She wants me to move things in the name of Feng Shui. I’m not a big fan and don’t really believe in that whole thing. It’s more of a Chinese folktale as far as I am concerned.
Anyhow, using my new keyboard to write this, I noticed that the keys are a bit odd, but kinda nice too. It sucks that the keyboard itself doesn’t have the lights to tell if the num locks or all caps are on, but rather the lights are on the base. Just minor thing I guess. The other thing is that it seems to sometime send things in caps even when I haven’t shifted, sometimes it’s corrected itself, and sometimes not. However, that maybe because I saw it on the screen and corrected out of habit. Brings back memories of middle school. I had some computer class where we had to use a Mavis Beacon typing program, one of things they measured was speed and accuracy. If you made a mistake, it would count it even if you went back to correct it. It would drive my teacher nuts that I would correct any errors I made even though the program already counted it against me and I was lowering my speed by going back to make the correction. I just couldn’t help it though! I had to correct it, and I’m so not a perfectionist.
Enough ranting for tonight I suppose, here I go to watch movies or something for the next 2-4 hours. I hate you damn insomnia!!! Though on the other hand, it has force me to watch stuff I would have never thought of watching in the first place. Like the Batman Begins movie which I think is one of the best movies I’ve seen in a while or King Kong. It wasn’t great great, but I was surprised by it and enjoyed it. Or watching Flight Plan, I thought it was going to be a definite bore, but it keep me on the edge of my bed. Last night I watched The Net because the description was kinda geeky.. Ooo computer programer gets her identity stolen… Turns out that I must have watched it before because I remember having seen a tiny part of it before, either way it was a little better then the average movie and probably appealed to me because of the technology stuff involved. The jist is that some software company is trying to hawk their protection program which is actually a Trojan horse… So everything being ran on computers and the concern for security has this being installed everywhere.. You can figure out the rest that they have access to everything because of their program and blah blah…. Also, I’ve become strangely addicted to Desperate Housewives, I need to get season one on DVD or something because I missed those and can’t help but feel that I’m not feeling the whole story. And the last rant I swear, I’m so crushed that I can’t watch House anymore since I have to work Tuesday nights 
. Need a Tivo or maybe just a nice brother that can operate a VCR and is thankful for the awesome Christmas gift I gave him….