the times of kryptoniteglows

Yea, so toe rings with socks and sneakers can be a bad combination. Actually, it’s more of the rings that have little shit on them like beads…the “smooth” banded ones are kind ok. I’ve lost one of my favorite sterling silver rings, it’s been gone for months really, just noticed now… It probably just slipped off because most of my rings are like a size to big…

So here are the final thoughts on Dave. Well, first thing first, we all know it’s not going to be last time I talk about Dave, but I’m going to say final anyhow.

We aren’t going to be together, nothing short of some type of event where we are the last 2 people on earth will make even the possibility happen. Yes, we would let the human race end because of our irresolvable differences. I sound like some bitch ass lawyer, but I think the point is well made this way.

I can’t wish him the best for him and his new girl, because I’m jealous of her position in his life, even though I don’t want that position. Never having met the girl or anything, I have a dislike for her because of the position she has. For I can’t understand why in the world you would choose the fucked up girl over the good girl… Of course those adjectives are biased on my part, but from everything he tells me, that’s what I make of it. I have thought up some possible reasonings, but I don’t know how far off or close I am to the true reason.
1. The girl ain’t a bitch like me; I’m not quite a bitch. However, just in reference to my bashing, the term I feel is applicable. I have no problem using it to describe myself. Though the more detailed explanation is that the girl won’t put him down, for now. If you read the entries of my journal chronologically, you see that I made him out to be this perfect guy and then there was downward spiral. In the end, he is what he is. Those things that I once thought, don’t change, but there is the added negativity of recent interactions that blemish him in my eyes.
2. Our relationship was rushed and things were just fucked up in the process. Nothing can be done to change our past, had I wish things gone differently? Of course, but what has been done is unchangeable as the invention of the time machine has yet to happen.
3. She makes him feel not as fucked up. I think I’m very modest and mostly everyone would agree with that. One of the pros he told me of his new girl is that she is more wild and has stories of her own to tell. Lots to address with that…. Dave is high school drop out and well I graduated…at the top of my stupid class. This is something that I have brought upon myself though, I’ve never really had a problem with him being a drop out. I’ve spun it many different ways, depending on how our relationship was doing. It was great thing that he accomplished so much without it, but at the same time he is such a loser because he didn’t finish and has no GED. So maybe I guess he felt I sat way to high and mighty on my horse. I’m sorry I can’t be a bit more screwed up for him I guess, I can’t afford to be a screw up anyhow.

And stories, well he should know that the best ones are the ones that stay untold and never repeated ;). Nothing to ever acknowledge the existence of the possible story to be told but a really good grin… I have always heard the same stories over and over from Dave, so the stories he speaks of are probably nothing spectacular.

My disclaimer in attempts to prevent another biting me in the ass type of situation. All matters posted are explicitly skewed (the stats class at work there), more than likely in my favor (duh!). If any parties wish for clarification, request for edits, or whatever the fuck they want, leave a comment or contact me directly via any one of the many channels of communication I have open.

In ending, my real stats teacher taught us today. He is LOUD! No way I’ll be able to sleep now :(.