the times of kryptoniteglows

Haha, I turned on my speakers and just scared the shit out of my brother that was sleeping the couch. I need to get some new speakers, well more correctly is that I would like to get some new speakers. I want a decent set of maybe 2.1s for my room. I’m buying so much shit that I should just move into my own place. I have so much crap sitting here and continue to purchase so much more with no regards as to how the fuck I’m going to pay UD in August. I feel like just saying screw them and their parking tickets!
I got the financial aid letter from UD the other day and one of their “awards” was a $124 per semester subsidized loan! Um, big whoop! I can buy like one text book! Anyhow, still have my $500 scholarship from the school, so that helps a little bit. I’m still going to be looking to pay quite a bit for school, at least compared with the nearly free ride I had last year.
I’m contemplating taking the full time offer from my current employer. They offer up to 3k in tuition reimbursement for classes related to my job and all I have to do is get a C or higher! That sounds easy enough as I got that in World Religions and Calculus, both classes that I hated with a passion! I’ll finally get benefits like insurance! Of course, I’ll completely run out of time to do dumb shit and get hurt since I’ll be working so much along with school. I think even with the low salary they are offering me that I’ll be able to get my own place by myself. No roommates! Although, I really would rather have someone live with me because we could pool together and obviously get a nicer place than I could by myself. However, I don’t really have anyone that I feel like I could entrust with such a financial responsibility of paying rent and other expenses on time each month. And if shit goes sour, I’m quite literally stuck paying the bill. There is also the question of whether or not I can even get a place because I have like no credit history and can’t even get approved for a department store credit card!
I’ve started really making myself to get out and do things. I know I live in this like fucking box from the rest of the world. My parents have kept me out of so many things, but now I finally really have that freedom to do as I please. Well as far as being able to go out and whatever. I mean before I had no transportation since my parents worked all day and when I finally got my driver’s license I didn’t have a car and wasn’t allowed to get one. I really didn’t like people to come pick me up from the ghetto ass crap hole of a neighborhood that I lived in either. It’s kind of a pain to have my friends drive from like freaking Middletown to come get my ass and then have to drive me back before the night was over.
Of course my parents didn’t understand this concept of socialization, I suppose I shouldn’t expect them to as they have only one friend at all. I don’t know how they do it and how I’ve been away from the real world for so long. I did finally get the car in the summer of last year, but I let myself really be consumed by that person’s name who shall not be spoken of for now, of course we all know who I am talking about. Instead of spending time with my friends whom many of were going on to various things in life, I went for this person whom I had known for only months. I kick myself for not fully valuing the friendships that I had gained in those four years of high school. Last summer I think was a really critical time in those friendships that I will now say that I once had. Some folks I really have not spoken to since graduation when I really should have made the effort to hang out with them before they left little old Delaware for whatever they planned for their future. On that note, today I actually communicate more with the friends that I had in middle school. Outside of the close knit CNAP group from high school and a few random others, I don’t really have much to do with the other people that I met in high school.
I’m writing this at 5 AM and it actually sounds coherent and intelligible! It’s like a freaking miracle!
I need to get started on planning my vacation. It might not happen since I’m doing it so late. The first thing I need to do is schedule days off from work. Friends and I have helped me decide on some locations for my vacation. Top of my list are the DE beaches (LB is going down at the end of the month! :o) or Canada. I mainly just need a place to relax from here – work, school, family, the LAN… I’m actually trying to coordinate a vacation that will coincide with when I need to take off for the LAN. However, that looks rather iffy as the LAN is being held the last week of August on the 27th. If memory serves me correctly, UD classes start the following week. I honestly don’t want to go on a trip and come back to have to go to class the next day. I want a “buffer”. Now, back to the locations for my travels. The DE beaches have the highest peak rates for the times I want to visit, the rates literally jump up 2x per night for the time period I want o visit! Of course after that, it’s relatively cheap! I don’t know the cost of a Canadian trip, perhaps I’ll ask Steven… Anyhow, I need to find out if I need a passport or not. My sources have turned up the answer of suggested but not required. Nate on the other hand says from visiting last year that it is required. I’ll find out soon… I also guess Bruce kind of invited me to go to Atlantic City with him. That might get weird, so I really rather not do that one… No offense to Bruce of course…