the times of kryptoniteglows

Yes, ski poles do nothing for you at all, guess maybe so that people can tell the difference between you and a snow boarder when coming down the mountain. So, I had to endure about a 4 hour round trip drive to the poconos and attempt to ski for about 4 hours. I say attempt because I think I did more falling than actual skiing. I actually failed ski school!!! The instructors gave up on me, just me and the guy with a broken toe :(. It was an OK trip, suppose it could be been better if I could figured out how to adjust my ski boot earlier in the trip instead of when I was taking the damn things off! Then my friend got his bag stolen! He only had a change of clothes in there, but that is fucked up… Why steal someone’s clothes? Anyhow, I’m going to have to go back and conquer the mountain! There is also rafting that is coming up soon….

I finally also got my classes done thru drop/add. I have 14 credits, though 2 of them are like fake classes.. I’m not sure if I’m going to add one more class for a total of 17 credits. 17 seems like to much to handle with working full time, but 14 doesn’t seem like quite enough. Then like half of the classes I really wanted were entirely full so I couldn’t get those. I had to get some weird classes that I didn’t really want like data structures… bleh…

I’m a tard or well I was just plain tired tonight. So I did the dumb thing of grabbing a pan that just came out of the oven (my dinner!) with my bare hands. My thumb hurts so much now!!!!

I’m suppose to be able to do drop add now, but UD is being dumb. The classes I wanted are full too :(. I’m so fucked…

Gotta work tomorrow, hopefully everyone comes in and doesn’t call out sick like the past 2 days. Thursday I gotta go home, need to get laundry done ;). I haven’t bought a washer and well I don’t know how to do laundry… Plus my mom lured me back with wantons, kind of Chinese lasagna… Mmm if they made wantons with lasagna stuffing… Skiing or boarding on Friday and then work on Saturday.

Winter break is coming to an end

I’m definitely an shopaholic, I definitely have a problem, and I need to stop spending all my money. Evil credit cards are sucking me deep into the dark hole of debt. Of course if I stop shopping, what will I fill it with? Alcohol, smoking, other drugs? Maybe shopping isn’t so bad…

I did finally get a paper shredder and I can get rid of my past bank statements and other miscellaneous somewhat “confidential” documents. Which makes me want to rant about PNC, what blahness. I admit often times they will have good TEMPORARY rates on CD/money markets to lure you in, but they are blah otherwise. I mean it’s nice they have branches in the markets, but I hardly go to those markets. Anyhow, they were work the other day peddling their “workplace” account thingys. The lure was 10,000 points on a debit card, which I’ll guess is close to $100 worth of points. Well can’t beat almost free money so I inquire about what their account has to offer me. Exactly nada is what they had. I would need apparently $100K in their bank, yes $100,000 in their bank to even be near the interest rates I already get. Well, no thanks! Hell an account is only FDIC insured up to $100,000! Plus they were trying to peddle off that direct deposit is like some special feature. I don’t know of any bank that wouldn’t want my money… Ugh… Anyhow, I will stick with my awesome credit cards that give me up to 5% on certain things like gas and groceries and my ok checking account from Commerce that is always free. Plus they have a free coin counter thingy, not that I use it that much or like ever, but they have one!

Right…very odd that I for some reason went on a rant about all that, but I’m just kinda bored and I want to dull everyone else I guess. I’m getting sick from eating all these Tootsie Rolls, they are limited edition vanilla ones! So sugary, so sick, barf… It’s probably not even the candy, but my own cooking for the past 2 days. I cooked all of my own meals, one of them I seriously just threw stuff together in a pan and stuck it in the oven. It wasn’t too bad once I covered it with cheese afterwards… Then there was the … Know what, I think I feel sicker talking about it. I better just stick to frozen food and the good old microwave or delivery…

Work was dull, I was so tired because randomly I started talking to dyga just before I was about to go to bed. Then somehow I was making quesadillas, next thing I’m watching some CSI on my laptop. Finally I watch some crazy movie called Secretary before finally going to bed. Secretary was just some bizarre movie, some girl likes to cut herself so she was in a mental hospital, then she gets out, gets a job with this psycho lawyer that gets her to stop cutting herself. However, he is a psycho because he starts spanking her and she gets obsessed off that, craving it and then the lawyer dude just stops. I guess there was something hot about the spanking…but they were both troubled individuals, and I guess it’s something you have to see yourself to find out the rest. Back to work anyhow, another Saturday of work. I had 3 different dedicated servers go down on me just as I was going to leave, 2 of which were Linux. I suck enough with our standard configs to figure out a customer’s config is EKKKKK! Then of course it snows as I’m driving home, luckily it started coming down hard after I was pretty close to home. It wasn’t just the snow, but the winds that came along with and in a tiny little neon, it’s scary. A strong gust could really send me into another lane.

Now for a little art I call “shreds”, basically shredded a bunch of the bank statements and certain bills from the past year or maybe two. It’s definitely weird seeing all those things, it reminds me of everything I’ve gone through in certain ways. Like before school, I actually had money and if you were bored enough to enhance this resized photo you might just see exactly how much… There are transactions from when MBNA use to pay me and then UD and then finally the current employer. I see the canceled checks from doing my taxes last year for $1 to the feds and $2 to the state because of the amendment I had to file since MBNA’s late mailing of some twenty bucks in a 401K that was cashed out to me when I quit pushed me over in to the next tax bracket. The debit card transaction, like when I use to see Dave. I used to always get my gas in Dover, just out of habit and it was cheaper too I think. Can’t believe how much I spent for gas during that period and the gas purchases are like always right after each other, like I’ll fill up going to see him and then fill up going back. The massive amounts spent on textbooks I hardly ever used. For a period there just isn’t much money going out except for gas and a few minor things. I think I was missing a block of statements too… Then there are the verizon things, first real cell phone that is still not in my name because of the crazy deposit they wanted that wouldn’t even benefit creditwise. More transactions, nothing big or meaningful. Then starts the bulk payments out to the credit cards. It starts out innocently enough at just $25 those soon become today’s $1K+ to the credit cards. I probably wouldn’t spend so much without those, they make it much to easy to just spend, it just increases and increases and I don’t see my own cash decrease until the end of the month.

It’s what keeps me up at night lately, even with my new schedule I don’t sleep until well after 4 AM. I really do hate this and wish I could just come home, sleep, and get up earlier and get things done.

Just recently, like tonight I found out that one of the guys that I have ignored, blown off, and just in simple terms rejected on multiple occasions is with someone now. It shouldn’t bother me, but for some reason I actually feel a little hurt and almost a slight sting of rejection. I never really wanted to be the girl in his arms that badly before, but seeing someone else there makes me a little jealous. I guess I’m just a little crazy. I don’t know what is up with me. Did I really like him all along and was just afraid of getting involved again or do I just want the things that I can’t have? I should be feeling happy that he is off my tail right? I’m such an insane person… How the heck do I even function..

I really wanted to cut back on my spending like I said I would, but I bought a new wireless combo set. It wasn’t even like a great deal, but I saw it in the store and had to have it. I’m using it now and I got to say it’s nice to not have my heavy laptop on me while typing, just a much lighter wireless keyboard. The laser mouse is neat too, it’s the same design as my optical one that I like very much, but just with more precision with the laser. Kinda awesome, the geeky me… I was actually looking for a nice black keyboard to replace the white one for my desktop, but walked out spending 5x what I expected to on a silver set of hardware. Opps… However, really from this point on, no more frivolous spending.

My parents are getting on my case even when I’m at my house. Just drives me so freaking nuts. Since I don’t have all my furniture yet, my bed is literally in the middle of my room. My mom was on my ass telling me to rearrange my room so my bed isn’t in the middle. Not that I have much stuff, but the move would require me moving the bed, a whole sleuth of cables and my bulky TV. I’m sorry, not happening till I have everything and know where it all goes. She wants me to move things in the name of Feng Shui. I’m not a big fan and don’t really believe in that whole thing. It’s more of a Chinese folktale as far as I am concerned.

Anyhow, using my new keyboard to write this, I noticed that the keys are a bit odd, but kinda nice too. It sucks that the keyboard itself doesn’t have the lights to tell if the num locks or all caps are on, but rather the lights are on the base. Just minor thing I guess. The other thing is that it seems to sometime send things in caps even when I haven’t shifted, sometimes it’s corrected itself, and sometimes not. However, that maybe because I saw it on the screen and corrected out of habit. Brings back memories of middle school. I had some computer class where we had to use a Mavis Beacon typing program, one of things they measured was speed and accuracy. If you made a mistake, it would count it even if you went back to correct it. It would drive my teacher nuts that I would correct any errors I made even though the program already counted it against me and I was lowering my speed by going back to make the correction. I just couldn’t help it though! I had to correct it, and I’m so not a perfectionist.

Enough ranting for tonight I suppose, here I go to watch movies or something for the next 2-4 hours. I hate you damn insomnia!!! Though on the other hand, it has force me to watch stuff I would have never thought of watching in the first place. Like the Batman Begins movie which I think is one of the best movies I’ve seen in a while or King Kong. It wasn’t great great, but I was surprised by it and enjoyed it. Or watching Flight Plan, I thought it was going to be a definite bore, but it keep me on the edge of my bed. Last night I watched The Net because the description was kinda geeky.. Ooo computer programer gets her identity stolen… Turns out that I must have watched it before because I remember having seen a tiny part of it before, either way it was a little better then the average movie and probably appealed to me because of the technology stuff involved. The jist is that some software company is trying to hawk their protection program which is actually a Trojan horse… So everything being ran on computers and the concern for security has this being installed everywhere.. You can figure out the rest that they have access to everything because of their program and blah blah…. Also, I’ve become strangely addicted to Desperate Housewives, I need to get season one on DVD or something because I missed those and can’t help but feel that I’m not feeling the whole story. And the last rant I swear, I’m so crushed that I can’t watch House anymore since I have to work Tuesday nights :(. Need a Tivo or maybe just a nice brother that can operate a VCR and is thankful for the awesome Christmas gift I gave him….